Tonight

There is a saying that the wants of men is an unending journey. Once you had acheived what you wanted, there is always a feeling of emptiness inside. A vacumm that voids your heart. And then you'll want to start it all over again. We always wanted more, we always wanted to know what's next, and we don't know when to stop. Perhaps we shouldn't stop.


But a sane man would stop once in for a while, and think about what he has done all over the years. About the things he has done to others so as himself. And pounder for a long long time.


I just got back to kuching after first year of University. Frankly speaking I don't miss home that much. Not the places, places are just places. Without the people and the company, places have really very insignificant meaning. Sometimes it's just sad to visit an old street you used to walk on a lot. If you know what I mean, nostalgia does not always give the best feeling.


Moving back can be very difficult once a person has moved on. Even if it were a better choice, it is still difficult. I think the human nature has the tendency to move forward in almost all the things they do. We don't usually like to look back. We probably don't like to remember, the mind, in some sense are made to forget things. The best therapy ever is to simply forget things.


A year in University had given me much experience in dealing with people. I can say that I've grown up a little more. I've never felt time pass so fast in my life. In a twinkling of an eye, I had neglected blogging for a year. Not that it is very important, I'm just mentioning.


When I close my eyes in the night, and I think about all the possibilities of my future. None of them really fancy me. And we all most probably ended up with the question "why? why my father is not Li Ka Shing, I want an easy life that requires less thinking!" And I really don't know what to expect. But I know, someday, somehow I'm going to make all these worthwhile. I don't know how, I just know I will.


May you feel the same too =)

My Insignificant Life

There are many insignificant things that I want to talk about. There are so many of them sometimes I wonder why would people bother to read. The pursuit of happiness is a road filled with many fatal errors. In this pursuit people tend to lose balance, we all forgot what are the more important things. When career, work, relationships, friendships, beliefs and everything else comes together in a mix. Most people focus on one or two of these rational goals and disregard the others. So in the end, what did we live up to?

When you have a rich father, and I got no problem with that. Chances are that you can acheive material success more easily, provided that you don't ruined his wealth. When you don't have a rich father, you probably have to work your way up. Maybe your father aren't rich, but your children's father can be rich. Think it like that. But maybe you can work all your life and never be a billionaire, but it's okay, you have sufficient to eat and spend. As this world was never made to be fair, most people cannot be super rich, thank God we don't have to be super rich in order to acheive happiness.

Relationship is a bitch. There is this saying, the one you love most is probably not going to end up with you. Of course, I mean, how many people can miss California marry since so many people would "love" her. There is no theory that fits all. But most vagina can fit your penis, so, like I said relationships is a bitch. The best advise I can come up with, and it's true to everyone, is really: don't be too stuborn.

Belief I have 3 paragraphs to write, but since most of you wouldn't read, I would summarized it to 3 words instead: Believe in Jesus.

And these are the few things, not all of them, but a few that made up our lives. How we manage them, and how we see it decide the level of satisfaction we get. Ultimately it makes our lives meaningful.

There are many insignificant things I want to talk about, there are so many of them when you add them up. They made up your significant life.

You can make me as rich as a billionaire. But I still wont want it if I had to look like Jho Low!