Saturday, February 27, 2010


Sometimes reality can be ugly and difficult. And the hardest part of it all is that whether we like it or not, we have to accept them. Certain things cannot be forced. People cannot be controled, we have to let them be. That is reality. Reality is that things would not always go our way. This world is far from being ideal. So far. Yet, there is so little choice.

I don't like to be involve with people, but then I guess I did get myself involved a little too much. The more friends you know, the more sometimes trouble occurs. I tried to keep simplicity the way of life, but I guess such a thing is easier said than done.

So I learn to accept reality and certain things as they are. I didn't want to but again there is so little choice.

It is true that they say time waits for no one. This quote gets more real as you grow older. As time slip passed you, and suddenly you look back and see those memories you had acquired. They get more and more each day it's scary.

And when you blend time and reality together, you get a life. You get a life that waits for no one and it is real. If you don't face it with a little bravery, if you don't precious it, you're going to let life slip pass you.

So it is time, for me and you to deal with whatever issues that is troubling us now. It is time to make some decisions before we let it consume us. Before we put our feet too deep into the sinking sand of our lives. We have to make concious decisions. To pull ourselves up and to stay strong.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Top 10 Useless Quotes

10)There was a windrunner, who never stops for anyone. He goes as he pleases to anywhere he wishes. Responsibility was just a word, until one day, he graduated fucking college and realize if he doesn't work for food, he will die. This is the misery of life.

9)Everytime when I faces a challenge in life that I cannot overcome, I say I want to move on. It is really just a lame excuse to hide away from my problem.

8) I like how children play, how they cuddle and how they giggle. I don't understand why grown ups don't do that anymore. Just because we got a little older doesn't mean we have to forget every good that is left in us. And no, being serious is not cool.

7) I could really imagine myself driving down a lonely road in the next 5 to 10 years, probably back to my house to my own woman. I could really see that I'll have to put a lot of focuses on my family and forget some friends. I don't like that.

6) I woke up one morning and realize that the world can be conquered. So I started my conquest, my first step, went back to sleep.

5) I try not to get older each year. I try very hard.

4) The only kind of girls I like are those that I cannot get. I thought I was the only one, and then I realize everyone does the same. So why are there so many married couples in the world? Because when there is no cola drink you drink pepsi, it is still better than staying thirsty.

3) I like to be happy, I think everybody should. Although sometimes it doesn't happen that way, it shouldn't stop us from thinking like that.

2) Fantasy is always better the real thing. Because nothing in this world is that good. So keep dreaming. But some people like to turn their wildest fantasies into reality. So what happens to them? I don't know, I hope they die.

1) I have lost my innocence over the years, but I kept my virginity. Don't even know for what.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

It's not a date, it's an apointment

Contrary to popular belief, I do not get to eat a lot of good food in KL. Thanks to my housemates that are less food conscious and hyper body conscious, if there's one thing they would share with me eating, it will most probably be some universal protein shake or super mass gainer. Their supplement alone cost more than my monthly allowance. And they speak Indonesian. Which in time makes me understand and speak more Indonesian. Still, I have to confess that I like Indonesian more than bahasa Malaysia. I don't know why, theirs' just sound nicer. Of course, you can also attribute that love hate relationship to the government because I really do not favor them. Even in footballs, if one team won for the past 50 years, you would root for the underdogs.

Yes I am back in Kuching for the Chinese New Year. I would be here until Sunday. My last coming back to Kuching during last December for Christmas was great, coming back for Chinese New Year on the other hand is different. I can't help but to feel a little bit bored with the occasion. I know, coming back from a bigger city like KL to Kuching sometimes makes everything feel a little bit slower. But I don't think it's really the problem with the city. Shhh...... don't tell anyone, but yeah, I'm practically just feeling bored because I didn't have a date this week. No. None. I might be happier I guess if I were in somewhere else. Like Jakarta in a city of 9 million. Indon facebook is in a way different from Malaysian facebook.

This is how Indon facebook works for teens, because of the 10 times larger population compared to Malaysia, if you have a nice or over-photoshoped or fake profile picture, everyday there will be 4, 5 , or 6 people adding you as friend. So what you do is look at their picture, if you like it, approve their request, and then go to their wall and ask "mind to intro?" Then try hooking up and ask them out. So yeah, my friends would have 1000-2000 friends on facebook.

Malaysian facebook? Because of the little population there is, divided some more in different states. So in Kuching with 600,000 people. I get 0 friend request on a normal day. And those that added me are mostly................. you see, the larger the population, the higher the chances of getting a pretty lad. This is why you see there are so many sexy looking Chinese hookers in and around everywhere. And the Malaysian population, my god.......

Of course, beauty is just skin deep. But if you see my blog, it's not very deep also la. I am a very regular person. I shit everyday. Most of the time I talk shit. On rare occasion I talk sense. Because life is difficult enough, you take it a little more seriously than it already is, you'll die. A day without laughter is a day wasted. I don't care how rich or poor or how talented or how many business degrees you have. We gotta learn somehow to make our day a little happier because that's the way it should be. For me, I blog. It's therapeutic. For you, you read my blog, it's equally good or bad. Take it either way.

I am sorry I don't get to blog "properly" for such a long time. You know this thing about everybody has a life, life get busy, busy got busier and suddenly nobody has time for others anymore. People somehow grew up and just got sucked into a whirlwind of other interests and commitments. But it'll be great, for us, no matter how distracted we are with everything else and just sometimes get "in touch" back with the world. I am the king of getting in touch, I really am. Most people I know, they aren't pro-active in keeping in touch. Or should I say, Malaysian in general has a huge lack of initiatives (unless it can get them laid). If I don't call them, they never really call first. Which is why most people, by the time they reach 29, they have lost touch with so many of their friends. Sacrificing their youth and spilling their seeds for the so called love of their life that soon will be the worst nightmare and a catalyst of their mid-life crisis. Behold when you're old and saggy, I shall come back and laugh at you. Muahahahahaha.

Ahh, nahh, I just say that because I didn't get a date. Which is really disappointing. Not with myself, I'm great, if this goes on, I will have to settle with the "beauty is just skin deep, get a partner with inner beauty theory", which is irrelevant, and hypocritical. And my computer is infected with virus. So yeah, keep standing baby. Life doesn't end today, we'll keep standing until we see the light. Bye ya! ^^

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

What Are You Doing Right Now?

Hello gentlemen, this is early Tuesday as I am writing to you. The clock suggest that it's 3.30 a.m. but I like to think it as 6 a.m. in the morning. Because that's precisely the time when the sun rises. And as every dawn signifies a new beginning, I wonder if every night then signifies an end? Why must every beginning then comes with an end. Sometimes we would rather certain things didn't happen. Sometimes we regret the things we've done, the people we've met, the relationships we got in. But if we were given a chance again, would you still choose to do what you did before? I know I would.

I wonder what you're doing early this morning. I wonder if you see the same sun rises with me at this very time. I wonder what you did last night and if you're still fine. I wonder what happened after we realized that the world is too big and one can only be at one place at a time. I wonder on with no answers. A fool who thought nothing is many times better than a smart person who wonder of unending possibilities. You cannot look for a black cat in a dark room.

So I've learn to live today for today and tomorrow for tomorrow. After very much thought indeed. A person can neither live in the past nor the future, you can think about them. But one will never change and the later would never be the same as you expect. I was thought by wise counsel that I would survive any storms if I would devout my trust in God. So I rest my case in my belief. After very much thought indeed.

Nothing make sense anymore.

The person who writes this (whatever you call this is) is as normal as you are. Normal is what makes us beautiful. Happy Valentines and a Happy Chinese New Year. I know, this is the worst season greeting message ever writen.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Sodomy II

At last the long awaited sequel to Malaysia's proud and the best production ever is released worldwide yesterday. It is of course non other than "Sodomy II" staring one of my favourite actor Anwar Ibrahim. (I AM A BIG FAN!)

Before you start throwing stones at me, there is nothing to be worried about. I am just an observer, and I quote from Malaysiakini "Among those in court were representatives of Japan, UK, Switzerland and the United States.

Also present were International Committee of Jurists and Commonwealth Lawyers Association representative Mark Tromwell, and the International Bar Association's Jennifer Robinson. There are acting as observers during the trial."

A cold open in a television program or movie is the technique of jumping directly into a story at the beginning or opening of the show, before the title sequence or opening credits are shown. On television this is often done on the theory that involving the audience in the plot as soon as possible will reduce the likelihood of their switching away from a show.

And that was exactly what I was expecting in Sodomy II, but a cold open is not easy to make. Most people doesn't understand performing arts. Especially Malaysians. We only know how to eat, sleep and complain. Nevertheless, when I read the headline "Anwar seeks to subpoena Najib and Rosmah", I knew, he (Anwar) did it again.

On a more serious note, I have all the time in the world to see how this trial works out. And I will be the among many who is privilege to witness how the democracy in Malaysia will live, or how it will die. Anyway, definitely before I close, it is always my pleasure to leave my highly sought after and valued opinion. My comment is no, I don't think Najib and wife will go to the court to testify. The judge will likely dismiss the application base on some altered logic.

Back to my life, I have been playing dota over the long weekend. Peer preasure. Not that I'm addicted to games. I hardly play any games. For any boys my age, most of them are not interested in Anwar's sodomy trial, the only sodomy they're watching is porn. And those who does read the news and care to know the hapenings around them, don't play so much games. Life itself is already a big game to play. And I hardly scored any recently. No pun intended.

I am going back to Kuching for Chinese New Year next Saturday . For most people that complain coming to study in KL, my uni life is not so bad. Got some nice friends to play with and my area sells good food. PORK is widely available. Anyway hometown is hometown, you gotta go back there some day. Even Chin Peng wants to come back. But die la him, I don't really care for communist. BAM! Bye!